You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Igor was avidly researching religion, searching for answers he could not find in communism. One day he went to the university’s library and asked to borrow a Bible. “We don’t have such a book here, young man,” the librarian told him. “During the Great Patriotic War we had a few, but since then they have all been burned.”
Igor didn’t believe that story. Either it was forbidden to give a Bible to someone, or the KGB had taken them all away. So he began to read atheistic books, the ones officially sanctioned by the state, hoping to find scientific arguments supporting atheism.
He never found any.
Some authors quoted a verse from the Psalms, saying, “See, even the Bible says there is no God.” But in another book Igor found that entire verse quoted and read “The fool says in his heart, ‘There is no God.’” Not at all the same as denying God’s existence! Instead of presenting concrete proof against God, all they wrote were sarcastic, unfounded accusations. For example: “If someone asks you for your tunic, you should give your cloak as well. Fine. Does that mean if someone asks you for your shirt you should give your underwear? The Bible is teaching that you should run around naked!” None of their arguments directly addressed the question: does God exist?
In the end those writers give Igor the answers he was looking for. By quoting so much of the Bible in their works, they gave him large portions of the Bible to read. After reading the quoted verses in context, he realized the Bible proved the atheists’ argument to be wrong. He began to wonder. If God is just a fairy tale, why is every Soviet university student required to take a course on atheism, and why is there a government Department of Atheism just to convince people that God does not exist? It seemed to Igor if it was true that God doesn’t exist, there shouldn’t have to be all these activities to persuade everyone.
The more Igor read of the Bible, the more it impressed him with its beauty and power, as opposed to the weak arguments of its atheist critics. He no longer had any doubts; it was time to act. Kneeling, he confessed his sins, asking God for forgiveness and for help in starting a new life.
God can use even the writings of atheists to bring a seeking soul into His Kingdom.
Lord, help me trust that you are always at work and that if I seek You, I will find You.